lemme give y'all the backstory on me this girl and what went down. last june my homie took his own life and it messed me up bad some friends went to BZ for the fourth to remember him but honestly the vibes were off.
so while i was in US i matched with this girl back home in ct didn't think much of it but the first night we met i had crazy feelings like when i was with her all the pain just disappeared i felt so much peace. we clicked instantly but the relationship had some rocky bits till one day she sent me the classic it's not you it's me breakup text.
said she needed to focus on herself her money her living situation... three days later i was blocked on everything by the third week she was already posting some other dude saying they were in love. honestly don't know how to describe how that felt. during the relationship yeah i kinda fell off not tryna sound special but i been in the gym consistent for four years competed in physique do salsa play volleyball and yugioh. but i just stopped doing all that stuff and idk why i just couldn't make myself do it while we were together. don't think it's her fault tho she was supportive told me i could go to the gym with her and see my friends but i always had an excuse.
it was like i just wanted to be with her 24/7 all my feels depended on her she was a model and in the first few weeks i said i couldn't be with someone who posts like that and she took em all down said she'd do anything to make it work with me. the relationship felt like a dream i always opened doors got her late-night cookies flew her outta pr when her maager was bugging her kept a list of her faves got her flowers told her i loved her and she was my bestie every day.
we had mad miscommunication tho like on this la trip i was bitching a lot cuz she didn't know her schedule so i was stuck in the hotel for hours while she worked. another fight about intimacy while she was on her period cuz i'm not comfy with that. anyway she was going thru a lot of depression and said she had bipolar so when she sent those long texts i tried not to take it too hard figured it was just a mood swing. she said she wanted to model again and i was supportive kinda shoulda been more but i wasn't comfy with her going to random photographers apartments off insta for shoots.
i got super insecure and when i noticed she stopped posting me i kept tryna talk to her about it but she'd always say nothing's wrong we just don't have pics together. she doesn't have a good relationship with her parents so she was living with her aunt but her aunt was getting evicted so i know she was stressed but so was i all my feels just piled up and now she was gonna live 45 mins away.
i started spiraling felt like i was losing her and projecting a lot. so when she sent that breakup text i fought back hard cuz i didn't wanna let go but she seemed so over it we cried on the phone but she said she had to let me go focus on herself no matter how impossible it felt. i kept checking her socials and she slowly blocked me everywhere i cried thinking maybe she'd text me something small like i miss you or whatever.
but then a friend showed me her facebook and her and some dude were posting each other saying they loved each other and all that. i felt so sick texted her from a different number to get my feels out and she said she was miserable with me and this new guy is a blessing... how could this be? fall in love so fast? he looks nothing like me i got a beard she said she loves beards he doesn't i'm tatted he barely has any i'm in school i make good money why wasn't i enough? i get i wasn't perfect but it wasn't something we couldn't fix i even offered to pay rent for her own place even tho i wouldn't live there just cuz she wanted to be independent. feel like i could never take her back cuz how much i hurt but she said she doesn't owe me an explanation won't give me closure. she got so cold went from a heartfelt breakup text to telling me to never hit her up again...
Last updated on:2025-04-28T11:48:42+05:30
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Okay so like honestly reading all that I kinda think she just wasn't feeling it anymore and bounced. You gotta bounce too. You will eventually so might as well do it now. Just block her delete her number and focus on you. Hit the gym a lot.
Lowkey messed with my head tho like I got a whole love letter on Valentine's Day about how much she learned with me and a future and then days later she was just ice cold.
@OrinzoPP like people are confusing and change their minds sometimes or think they want one thing but actually want something else more. Also sometimes peopl just suck.
Just ghost her zero contact.
Think of it like this zero contact is probs the best way she'll reach out or rethink things. Any talking to her now makes you look desperate.
Act like it's no big deal and you can get an even hotter smarter gf. Fake it till you make it. And then just believe it till you do or she comes crawling back begging.
@hideface003 Thank you for this
Yo were you maybe using your girl to cope with your friend's suicide and when she dipped all the sad feelings came back That's what it sounded like when you talked about your first date Like all the depression about your friend you used her to forget it Like a crutch The way you went all in with her so fast Is that your usual or do you normally chill and get to know someone before getting so invested Just my thoughts tho you might not agree
Nah fr tho I usually don't rush things learned the hard way new people can make you think you're in love fast which always ends up messy but this felt different tho like it just clicked