it's only been just over two weeks but I'm starting to remember all the bad things like from the very begining things I had completely forgotten about that I excused and said he would change and he did with some things. there is some peace in not being around someone who didn't give you affection or love yet told you they loved you. someone who manipulated you into thinking you always wanted more when you were looking for the basics, someone you couldn't trust anymore. it's confusing when they gave you breadcrumbs or talked about your future and you were heavily invokved with their children. they were really nice to you but could turn and be nasty. the joys of being with someone addicted to cocaine. I feel good some days and then in the evening time when I'm alone I get this wave of pain and sadness like someone has died. I think about him and get mad and then think about him and feel sad and miss what I wanted it to be or what he told me it was going to be. what I learned from that relationship is never go on someone's words or promises, first what they show you, with their actions or lack of.
Last updated on:2025-05-14T13:34:30+05:30
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Some people thrive on making you doubt yourself. You weren’t asking for too much just the basics respect trust love.
It’s tough when you realize they never truly gave what you needed just enough to keep you hoping for more.
The clarity that comes after a breakup is wild you start seeing everything you overlooked when you were in it.
Feeling like the pain you are going through is hard but it is what is necessary. Just wait n see how you will get stronger. You know when someone is addicted to substances its nevery really about you. Its about them their addiction and the lies they will tell to keep it and the rest everything around them is only coping. There is no real involvement. I am sorry you are going through this. but it is what you need to do for yourself. So stay strong