I ain't doing better still blocked and got this gnarly feeling I'll never hear from her again

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I ain't doing better still blocked and got this gnarly feeling I'll never hear from her again. Every time I park I just sit there and sob like crazy. I'm a tough dude this is messing me up. Just wanna forget but can't everything reminds me. No happiness anymore and when it shows up it dips quick when I'm alone again. Got the best golden retriever ever still feelin mad lonely tho. My family's not close and my friends are a small crew. lowkey terrified I'll never find love have kids or a family. Being alone is whatever but it ain't fun anymore.
Just want her back for real. But it ain't gonna happen. She was a covert avoidant beautiful great mom even tho the narcissism and avoidant stuff sucked I miss our talks doing stuff laughing and just having someone everyday to hit up and be part of my life. Wish there was a delete memories button somewhere fr.
This just hurts so much

Last updated on:2025-05-16T22:34:48+05:30

Comments (8)

KeepitSaral
KeepitSaral 10 mths ago

Hey buddy I hope you find the strength that you are looking for.Please try and not stay alone and as far as fear of not finding a partner is concerned it's totally untrue it's your comfort zoned mind telling you stories that ain't true.Wishing you all the strength and Power

penniivough
penniivough 10 mths ago

You gave love deeply and that’s rare. One day someone will give it back just the same.

Yovajurio
Yovajurio 10 mths ago

No delete button exists but time is a slow eraser one day this pain won’t sit so heavy.

Tiedie
Tiedie 10 mths ago

Some love leaves scars but those scars don’t define you. You’re still worthy of something real.

Miniorsad
Miniorsad 10 mths ago

The fear of being alone forever is real but it’s also a lie. Your story isn’t done not even close.

Lovealone
Lovealone 10 mths ago

Heartbreak makes you believe happiness is temporary but trust me joy comes back—bit by bit.

jignia03
jignia03 10 mths ago

You’re grieving more than just love you’re grieving the life you thought you'd have. But life still has surprises waiting for you.

leaviekovb
leaviekovb 10 mths ago

The loneliness hits different when you had something that felt real but don’t let the past convince you there’s no future.