my last relationship was straight toxic and abusive with an ex who had mad mental health stuff and was super manipulative. I supported her in every way even paid for her therapy. We broke up like six times in two years only for her to crawl back but I bounced after she randomly dumped me on the side of the road burnt my gifts cheated and then blamed it on her mental health and psychology degree. I feel like such a clown for always begging her back and being all soft and apologizing when it was clearly her fault. Still can't believe she found someone new like two months later after saying she wanted to focus on herself and that 'love doesn't exist' and she'd be forever single. Wild.
Then like four months later I found someone on Insta (wasn't even ready) who loved me a lot (kinda looked like my ex tho she'd never dated and was older). Those months falling in love were so good natural and sweet she even confessed she loved me. She helped me heal from the last breakup things got serious she told her parents wanted to meet mine for engagement and marriage only for her to dump me at lunch saying she couldn't commit not even a week after I told my mom. I'm so over this seriously why me.
Fast forward almost a year I was like screw this. Focused on my career fitness mental health new hobbies and friends I actually like. Physically I'm good financially stable healthy learning stuff business ventures more friends. But that hole is still there the heart wants love you know to love and be loved right. Feel mad lonely almost all the time and honestly feel like I'm fading watching everyone my age get into relationships married having kids. Deleted all dating apps they're so bad ghosting and breadcrumbing are insane. This fear's been on my mind forever and I'm worried.
I just wanna experience real love you know seems easy for most but for me it's like hell
Last updated on:2025-05-19T18:17:50+05:30
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Real love's kinda hard to find these days ngl. But it might be possible tho. First off love yourself for real. Someone out there will vibe with you for you.
try loving yourself .
don't let those two people define your worth you are doing good .love is something to give not take .
surround yourself with good people positive energies go to the gym read books .
build your character.
n be selfish but don't hurt people.dont compromise at least not with your mental health selfish people win nowadays .
people like us we don't stand a chance at happiness in this cruel world.
don't chase marriage earn good money n travel world first meet new people.you will forget what those two people did to u okay be happy no one cares be happy for yourself:)