I dumped my ex 3 years ago for some made up reason and honestly I'm still convinced it was the dumbest move ever.
I've had three relationships since then: one year three months and four months. Every single time I ended it because I kept thinking about her. Two of those girls were even super similar to her. Point is I literally cannot get over her. Every new relationship I start, I either bail cause I want her instead or I'm just with them bcause they kinda look like her.
My ex and I still talk like for the past year and a half. She's got a boyfriend of two years. She's even called me complaining about him before and sometimes I'm convinced she doesn't even wanna be with him. But idk if that even matters.
I'm so obsessed with her I can't even explain it all. I can't imagine these feelings ever just leaving. I'd drop everything in a second for her, give her literally everything I have. I could just live my life alone low key praying she'll wanna grab coffee again. I even wear a necklace almost exactly like the one she gave me that Valentine's Day before we broke up. I've even thought about getting this koi fish tattoo she drew for me. Am I wilding? This doesn't feel normal but idc if I'm being used as a backup plan or for attention or whatever As long as I can still be connected to her like she replies to me and we talk for ten minutes then she moves on with her day and we don't talk for another month until something else pops up. Gosh. Anyways... yeah. Uh. Hope everyone has a good day.
Last updated on:2025-05-22T16:00:18+05:30
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If she wanted you back would she have made it obvious? Maybe that’s worth asking yourself.
If she’s unhappy that’s her choice to fix. You can’t be the backup plan forever.
You deserve a love that doesn’t feel like waiting. If she wanted more she’d show it.
She’s in your life but not in the way you want sometimes that’s the hardest part.
Three years later and she’s still got a hold on you sometimes love refuses to fade.
Hey I totally understand your feelings and been in this boat.but things started getting better for me when I actually started being engaged, content and joyful with my life after which either you will drop the desire of being with her or it may actually happen.If you really wanna be with her become the person like you are already dating her.and that kind of person won't be anxious or overthinking about her infact he will would be really secure and non needy about her.Hope it helps