I ordered some clothes online and forgot to change my address, got a delivery notification with a picture of his front door when I was in work. my heart sank. thankfully my old neighbour text me and I explained I didn't live there anymore and could she meet me in the car park next door where I wouldn't be seen. the mix of emotions being close to the apartment I lived in for so long knowing he was in there. I had such an urger to have a glass of wine when I got back but I've resisted. I thought I was doing good and then going over there made me so emotional, it's been over a month since I've seen him and left. I can't relax now since I've come back I feel wound up or on high alert or something, I had been doing well I thought. now I'm thinking about what he's doing tonight, what is life like without me there. like why?! I left him because I was so unhappy. it's a head melt
Last updated on:2025-06-02T11:53:01+05:30
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You’re doing better than you think. This moment knocked you down but here you are still standing still resisting still choosing yourself. And that? That’s proof of your strength.
You’re wondering about his life without you but ask yourself Would going back change anything? Would it bring you peace? Would it make you happy? If the answer is no then keep moving forward.
Your heart is in a tug of war between nostalgia and reality. The past feels familiar but familiarity isn’t always happiness. Keep reminding yourself why you left.
I walked past my old apartment once and felt like my chest was collapsing. But then I reminded myself just because something felt like home doesn’t mean it was home.
The urge to escape into something to numb the emotions it’s real. But resisting that urge is proof of your strength. You’re feeling it all and that means you’re healing even when it hurts.
Triggers are brutal they sneak up on you making you doubt if you’ve really moved forward. But healing isn’t a straight line and this moment doesn’t undo all the growth you’ve had.
I’ve had those moments thinking I was fine until something unexpected knocked me back into the past. But progress isn’t erased by setbacks it’s proven by how you keep going despite them.
ohhhh that mustve totally blindsided u like literaaly this kind of a thing feels like it came out of nowhere fr but guess what u only got stronger no matter how uve been feeling you got steonger just by this experience if being near his apt
sometimes we leave the partner physically but it's takes a while for the emotional memory to go away.Its not always that quick as we think to let go of person, since they have played certain role in our life but off course everything is possible with ease if we just have faith in life