it has been 20 days since I cut it off and did no contact. it has been rough but I was getting through it. the relationship was very manipulative just to say the least but I still loved him. I blocked him on everything so I would not stalk his socials just for my own health's sake. except his mother's Instagram came up as a recommended and if course I had a look. there were some pictures of him at some graduation. he always had this childlike soul to him and I only saw it a few times but it's what made me stay longer than I shouldve. idk if it makes sense when I say childlike soul but basically I could see his authentic personality. that sounds so weird haha. anyway u could see the child like him in the pictures. so I'm back at square one again and the rise tinted glasses are slipping back on.
Last updated on:2025-06-02T16:08:35+05:30
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You don’t have to be perfect at no contact. You don’t have to erase love to heal. You just have to keep choosing yourself even when the past whispers its familiar tempting lies
The childlike soul the authenticity it was real but it wasn’t everything. There was also manipulation hurt reasons why you had to block him. Don’t let the good moments erase the truth.
It’s okay to acknowledge the parts of them that were beautiful the parts that felt real. But don’t let admiration for one side of them make you forget the side that broke you.
Seeing pictures seeing glimpses of their happy moments it hurts because it reminds you of what you once loved. But love alone isn’t enough. Peace respect and trust matter too.
I used to let memories convince me I’d made a mistake forgetting all the pain that led me to leave. But love isn’t just about moments it’s about patterns. And his patterns kept hurting you.
Twenty days is a huge milestone. The fact that you were getting through means progress was happening even if this moment feels like a setback. Trust that healing is still happening beneath the surface.
the way small glimpses of them make you forget all the reasons you walked away. But rose tinted glasses don’t erase reality. They only make it harder to see clearly.
by child like u mean playful i guess? i guess thats cos u appreciate that in ppl and want to be like that. sometimes all we need to do is to emulate the good things we like ppl then we kinda stop getting awed by them... make you need someof that playfulness in yourself ? i dunno if i am making sense.. think about it
hey 👋🏼 sorry you're feeling like this. Ive eleted insta off my phone just until I'm in a better place, it really helps