earlier tonight I got hit with a super painful reminder of her. I think about her every day but this one just hit. It's wild how we're total strangers now that's so devastating. I'm just desperately waiting hoping she'll unblock me one day so we can talk again. I kinda forgave myself for messing up and not realizing I loved her till it was too late. Life's just not been the same since she dipped. I've healed a little but still suffering. I miss her so much. So many times stuff happens and I just wanna tell her about it. It's almost like my wins mean less now since I can't share 'em with her. I know I sound crazy. I know my thoughts and what I'm doing aren't healthy. No matter how obvious it is I should just forget her and move on I literally refuse to. Idk what my future holds but for now I don't wanna go after anyone else. I'd even be hesitant to vibe with someone if they were into me first. Embarrassing to say but I'm at a point where it's her or nobody. I'm saving myself for a girl who might never even wanna see me again let alone date. Lots of stuff in my life's up in the air as a new college grad. I know my feelings might change and I know I sound effing nuts but right now I only want her. I really hope she's doing well or at least better than when we last spoke. She brought me so much joy. I miss her. Hope we link up again one day
Last updated on:2025-06-06T16:22:56+05:30
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It’s okay to hold onto the memories for now but don’t let them keep you from creating new ones. Your future isn’t tied to the past. And one day you’ll see that.
She brought you joy but joy isn’t something that leaves when someone does. It’s something you create something you carry even after they’re gone.
I know you don’t want to move on. I didn’t either. But one day when your heart is ready you’ll let go not because you want to but because you finally feel okay without them.
Hoping they come back keeps the wound open. I did the same and it kept me from fully healing. When I finally started focusing on my own life without them everything changed.
Being in limbo not wanting anyone else but knowing I couldn’t have them was the hardest part. But eventually I realized I wasn’t saving myself for them I was trapping myself in an idea of what we were.
I used to think that missing them meant I was failing at moving on. But missing someone is normal it doesn’t mean you’ll feel this way forever. It just means you’re still processing and that’s okay.
I get it how do you just erase someone from your life when they were so much of it? But what helped me was remembering that love is meant to bring peace not keep us stuck in longing.
The idea of being strangers with someone who once knew you better than anyone is devastating. I used to hope they’d unblock me that maybe fate would bring us back together. But the real healing came when I stopped waiting.
wanting to share your wins your thoughts the little moments with the person who once meant everything. But slowly I learned that my life was still mine even without them in it. One day you’ll feel that too.