I met my now ex-boyfriend a little over a year ago

I met my now ex-boyfriend a little over a year ago. It started off rough but I really believed in us. When he invited me to visit him for Christmas and New Year's I took a huge leap I lied to my parents telling them it was a funded research trip and used my Eid savings with him promisig to cover the rest. In the beginning things seemed okay we spent a couple of days in London but when we went back to his place in Leeds things started going downhill fast. He hit me on my head and leg as a joke even though he knew I had a recent knee dislocation. His brother constantly interfered in our relationship insulting me and treating me like I didn't belong. On Christmas Day after a fight I left and waited nearby crying exhausted and having not eaten but he didn't come for hours and simply didn't care. He promised his brother would apologize which never happened and when I got upset and slammed the door my boyfriend screamed at me. His brother stormed in called me a bitch and his girlfriend said I needed a mental hospital all while my boyfriend said nothing. He later threatened to cancel my ticket and kic me out just because I was texting Arab friends in Arabic about what happened he literally translated my private messages using Google Translate behind my back. That same night after all that he watched porn and when I asked him why he said just to check what's new which truly broke me since I had never had sex before he was my first and I gave him everythin. I stayed until my flight and on New Year's Eve he had no money so I paid for everything Ubers train tickets and even gave him cash but he never appreciatd it.
After I got home nothing changed he never supported me emotionally or financially. I'm still a medical student with no income and a month ago when I asked if he could temporarily help me rent a place he refused saying I’m not your carer your father or your providr. But if you love someone you help when you can and I was at my lowest he could have helped he just chose not to. I've survived abuse my whole life with violent parents and my mom even let my sisters hold me down so she could beat me. One of my sisters physically assaulted me over something as stupid as using her salon and I even had to leave my grandparents home after being used and disrespected there too. Back in my family's house now my sister lies to my parents to turn them against me and I don't feel safe I lock myself in my room feeling isolated and hated. I told him I was suicidal that I was breaking that I didn't want to live and do you know what he did? He told me to go cut myself he challenged me and when I did he accused me of faking it and said it was makeup I had to send a live video just to prove my pain was real. That moment broke something inside me permanently.
I am now so desperate that I’ve considered selling nudes just to survive which goes against everything I believe in but I have no one no safety no support and no money. He called me a cunt screamed at me and blamed me for everything and when I was crying in pain for what he had caused instead of hugging me he told me to shut the fuck up because I was crying loudly and couldn't stop. I was never good enough if I did something it was wrong but if he did the same it was fine. I even asked him once on the day of my last ever medical school exam just to be there and do a study call with me and he refused. I gave him everything my heart my loyalty my safety my body my savings my silence my tears and all I got was disrespect abandonment and emotional violence. I’m exhausted I don’t want to be strong anymore. I just wanted to be loved without being destroyed.

Last updated on:2025-06-18T21:32:02+05:30