I woke up and got hit with the wave of regret, anger, and longing. It wasn't a nice feeling to wake up to. I still had to put on my game face and show up to work. I have to constantly remind myself that our breakup wasn't personal, that I can't change his mind. It just feels unfair that on that day, I was talking to him to fix us but he was communicating to ease the goodbye. There was nothing I can do to make him love me the way that I want him to. Whatever it is that made him think being alone is better for him, I hope he won't regret it. I truly hope that he finds what would truly satisfy him in this lifetime, that's how much I love him. But I don't have it in me anymore to wait for him to come back and be the guy that I fell in love with. I'm just grieving what was, what we were, and the version of me that loved him deeply.
Last updated on:2025-06-24T09:04:37+05:30
Comments (9)
I feel like I'm reading my story. I'm going through the same thing and it's so hard. We will get through this!
It’s okay that it still hurts. Love doesn’t switch off with someone else’s decision. But I promise one day this will feel lighter.
Sending hugs. You did your best and that’s more than enough. It’s his loss if he couldn’t see that.
You loved deeply and now you’re loving yourself enough to let go. That’s powerful. Thats growth.
Hi that part about waking up with the weight of it all? I’ve felt that too. Just know every morning you get up and face the day anyway that’s strength. That’s healing.
This kind of heartbreak is the hardest when you wanted to stay and they were already walking away. Let yourself grieve. You’re alowed to feel it all.
You’re not wrong for feeling all of this. It was lov. And now you’re showing just how deep and strong your heart is even while breakin.
It’s wild how someone can be saying goodbye while we’re still fighting to hold on. You’re not alone in this. The healing’s messy but you’re doing it beautifully.
This felt like I was reading my own heart. You put it into words so perfectly grieving the us and the version of you that loved him... I see you. Sending you so much love.