been doing ok most days. I have moments in the day but I can distract myself or keep myself busy most times. today I went to the grocery store and everything came crashing down. Just a wave of sadness, all the memories this last winter going shopping together, or coming home and stopping in to grab her flowers or some little surprise. I did my shopping quickly trying not to cry. its been about 3 and a half months since she left me and im just so sick of being sad. I miss her being here, I miss seeing her smile. I miss cuddling up at nite together for warmth. I hate being alone. and thats all I feel I am now. alone on the side of a mountain trying to make my homestead dream work
Last updated on:2025-06-30T14:03:02+05:30
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It’s so hard when memories hit you out of nowhere like that.
It’s okay to miss her and feel sad it just shows how much she meant to you.
The quiet after someone leaves is so loud, especially in the places they used to exist. It’s okay to still ache. Missing her smile and that warmth just means you loved deep.
Building a homestead alone is brave, even if it hurts right now.
Keep going. Even the strongest people need time to heal.
Man, I felt that heavy. It’s wild how the smallest things, like grocery shopping, hold the biggest memories.
You’re not weak for still missing her, just shows how real it was.
Three and a half months might sound like a lot, but for a heart, it’s still raw. and hey Yyou’re not truly alone on that mountain, right here with you, feeling it too.
I appreciate it. I got friends and family and support. but its all b the time alone. especially like right now. its 1015 at nite and im alone in a big cabin listening to the rain. Just lonely