We've been broken up for 3 days. He dropped off my things now, and it stung. He kept his word and brought me a pregnancy test, and it turns out I'm pregnant. I'm mortified, I'm so young and I can't bring a baby into a world where there's no foundation, no money, and with a father who can't make up his mind. I lived just like that and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. I know I'm stupid, and I'm not looking for sympathy for something that's entirely my fault. I just need to get it out. He stayed while I took my test, and it could've been worse. He was distant at first, but he gradually opened up as I cried and reminisced over better times. I feel better knowing I'm not alone in my confusion, I figured he'd be out with his friends or keeping himself busy. He's been drinking and says he misses me, and he isn't looking for another girl. I just don't understand why he won't stay, then. I need him more than ever, and it's sickening knowing I can't help but wait around. We're the only two who understand our bond, and eachother, and that makes it so much worse to let go. I've removed him off all social media, and we only have access to each other's phone numbers. It's so hard not to seek comfort, but I don't know where to turn. I just need to know it'll be okay, whether I have him or not. Has anyone else gone through this? Am I stupid for believing he might feel bad and try again with me? I wish I was strong as I say I am, I don't know why I can't just leave this man alone specifically.
Last updated on:2025-07-24T17:47:02+05:30
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this broke me. i remember thinking “how can he say he misses me and still not stay?” it made NO sense. i used to cry myself to sleep trying to make it make sense. it’s okay if you’re not strong right now. i wasn’t either. but little by little, i started choosing me. you will too.
you’re not weak. not for hoping. not for needing him. it’s just that bond... it’s brutal how deep it goes sometimes 💔
i don’t know you but i swear i felt every single word. i’ve been in that exact loop pregnant heartbroken terrified still holding onto maybe. it’s not stupid. it’s human. your heart just wants to feel safe again.