I just don’t know how I didn’t see it. - the whole time she told me she was trying to see if she could force herself to love me because I was a healthy option. she TRIED to make me feel loved but deep down she never loved me. I worked through her issues with her, her family loved me, she held me while I cried and vice versa and it was all a lie - she let me talk to her about moving in together, settling down with cats, a dog and a rat - which we NAMED in advance. she let me dream about getting married and even possibly having kids. I DONT EVEN LIKE KIDS USUALLY- but I WANTED to have them with her. I just really want to go out and make shit choices like getting with some stranger but I know it’s too early for that stupidity and I should know better
Last updated on:2025-07-27T12:18:02+05:30
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you don’t sound stupid. you sound heartbroken. wanting to act out makes sense just means the pain’s louder than the logic rn. i’ve been there too. it’s hell.
same happened to me. she said i was the safe choice. felt like i got picked last for love. like i was just a placeholder until she felt enough. still messes with me.
i hate how real this is. when someone lets you build a future in your head with them in it knowing damn well they’re not staying?? that messes with your entire reality. i’m so sorry.
I'm a girl but I relate to most of that , he too made me dream of getting married and having kids and a dog amd even named our first daughter , and I wanted to get into new relashinship after the breakup but I know it's evil to heal by someone else and left them broke , you are not alone in this journey and one day we all will heal from the past