All my colleagues know that we were together

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All my colleagues know that we were together, and because I don’t want anyone to gloat over me, I pretend all day that I’m happy, act normal, and tell jokes. But as soon as I get home, I start crying and don’t study. I’ve been absent from university a lot. I want to heal soon but I don't know how .

Last updated on:2025-07-25T23:19:59+05:30

Comments (4)

funsun
funsun 7 mths ago

i used to cry in the shower after work just so no one would hear. i wanted to scream but couldn’t even whisper the truth to anyone. you’re not alone

joavalipa
joavalipa 7 mths ago

this hurt to read. that pressure to look fine so people don’t get to win? i’ve lived that. and it’s so lonely.

roastmind
roastmind 7 mths ago

i feel this so much. the pretending is EXHAUSTING. like putting on a full mask just to survive the day. i did it for months at my job and by the time i got home i couldn’t even move. it’s okay if healing feels slow. it’s okay if you're not okay right now.

SnapRay
SnapRay 7 mths ago

it's gonna be okay it sucks right now and hurts but let yourself feel it and the pain will pass, what hobbies do you have