its so nice to have experience of love with her, tho it ended badly to the point i changed. im still be a lover person, it was nice of me to know that i can show my lover side while keeping masculinity. i bought her flowers, wrote her letters, and even made a heart origami... the one i thought was cringe and stupid before i fell in love. Although it ended badly, it ended where i was abandoned... it did not change me?. This is my day 23 i think, and i am happily moved on tho i need to heal. ik its a sudden feeling, there's this girl idk her name and idk even how her fsce fully looks like, but she pops in my mind and heart. ik its too soon, and ofcourse i need to heal, but my heart and prayers echoes this woman that idk her name of. My ex, i broke no contact yesterday (no im not resetting) just to give her the proper closure for her future self, i told her that i forgive her sincerely with all my heart. And i told her that this someone is echoing in my heart and mind, not to be cruel or whatnot, but you reap what you sow.... My mind is not stuck in this constant loop that my ex was the one, no he did not, instead my mind detached quickly and adapt to new environment that comforts my heart. i had to give her this closure of not finding me when things went south or to disturb me, hence i told her that this someone was echoing in ny heart. idk how my mind works, yk how it work??? instead of me escaping or having like depressive thoughts... i adapted the environment quickly, i was not in denial or what not when she left me. Some ppl be traumatized of this, but i was not.... strange ... instead my mind told me that there will always be someone out there and never give up on love. Which this certain someone was the person that is echoing in my heart and mind, but ofcourse i need to heal to 100. I appreciate my dear ex for loving me when ur heart intends to love me, but ik as time grows, that love is gone. So please let me go when your mind screams for me in the future, for i am long gone... To move forward, is to not look back. My memories with my ex is already buried, and i will face the world alone and move forward.
Last updated on:2025-07-28T04:14:31+05:30
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i had a similar shift—was cold and detached for years, then fell in love and suddenly i was writing poems like a teenager. still healing too but i won’t pretend that version of me wasn’t real. it was. and it mattered.
yes we're in the same boat, and we need to heal first 100 percent before pursuing this person echoing in our heart
day 23 and already holding that kind of peace in your heart?? that’s strength. fr i needed to read this today.
hell yeah
damn. this hit different. you sound like someone who really loved. the flowers, the letters, the origami?? i felt that. you didn’t lose anything by showing up that way—she did.
yes, she did. and i will move forward