it's been 60 days. I feel proud about the time, but I admittedly think about him often and secretly hopes he texts.. although I also don't want that in a way because then the cycle restarts. I wonder if it's because I miss him or because of my pride, maybe both. I thought maybe I need to get someone else to distract me, so I hooked up with someone last night. Just a kiss, I decided to not do more. I realised this is not the way, something quick and meaningless (even if fun in the moment) just distracts me for a moment and then makes me miss the way he used to kiss me and everything else. I'm not breaking in half anymore but I long for him and I'm tired of feeling this because I know we can't be together and he'll find someone else if he hasn't already.
Last updated on:2025-07-30T05:32:30+05:30
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it’s wild how we can want them and not want them back at the same time. like i knew my ex was no good for me but the way i still craved him? maddening. you’re doing so much better than it feels right now.
Thank you.. But you're right, maddening! Are you in a better space?
same. i kissed someone too and immediately felt emptier after. not bc of them just felt like i was borrowing someone else’s skin. it’s brave you noticed it wasn’t it.
Yeah, moving on is tricky and can be pretty lonely even if you're with someone else
Congratulations on day 60 and just keep up. Missing him is normal, secretly hoping even more, we've all been there and it is a combination of ego and curiosiry. But you already know you're better without that message, it would just create unnecessary pain and confusion. And congrats on trying with someone, baby steps and fun are fine, for some time it is going to feel wrong until one day and with the right person it won't anymore!
Thank you! I appreciate your positivity and insight. I know it's just necessary to be strong now and get over this hump.
this hit hard. i remember hitting that proud but still aching phase too. like look at me go! but also… why am i still checking my phone?? it’s the weirdest grief. you’re not alone in this.
I hope you're in a better space now. Such an odd pride, right?
the hardest part isn't breaking it off but coming to the realization that all the hope and dream of you both are now gone. The truth is, it doesn't matter. Just like you deserve to move on and have a fulfilling life, so do they. Be Strong and continue in the path of self-assurance. May God bless you and guide you through these difficulties. Sending love ❤️
That's true, thank you for your kind words. I hope you're doing well too