Day 9 Post Break Up: I have been struggling a lot the past few days because i don’t know how he can bee so fine or seem fine with how everything ended

i stayed available for MONTHS thinking maybe he just needed time too. turns out he didn’t wanna come back he just liked knowing i would. that broke me more than the breakup did.

he’s still my emergency contact 😞 god i feel that. mine was still picking up my meds and acting like we were strangers.

this hurt to read. i remember staring at my phone just hoping he’d check in even once. they move on like nothing happened while we’re stuck holding the pieces. it’s not fair.

i feel you so well. i don’t know if he is just pretending or what but seeing him acting like nothing happened is so fckin hard. i am so confused cuz my whole world just falling apart and i feel like he didn’t love me like i love him. you’re not alone, i really got u.

same boat i have always wanted to leave i hope today is the right day

I feel you. The feeling that they’re fine about everything just rips out your heart. But he’s struggling too, sometimes people convince themselves they’re fine or make it look like they are but they’re not. I’m in the same boat, he said we could still talk and be friends, but I started no contact because part of me hopes that by giving him the space and time apart he wanted, that we’d find our way back to each other. But I can’t kid myself either, it ended kind of in a progressively ugly way, so it probably won’t happen. Keep being strong, try to stay busy and distracted as much as you can. That’s all I can do to keep from feeling like I’m dying every day from losing my best friend and soul mate.