Its 4am again. Smoking my cigarette and thinking about her. I mean it kinda got better. I don't panic anymore. I'm not exploding anymore. The what if's disappeared. I just miss her but it's her choice. And its mine how long i will stick too the pain..
Last updated on:2025-07-30T22:52:02+05:30
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i used to sit on my balcony at 3am doing the same. every night for weeks. i didn’t even realize i was grieving what could’ve been more than what was. you’re not alone.
i remember when the panic stopped and i thought i was healed… but then the missing stayed. softer but still there. it’s real.
I love this for you. And it reminds me it’ll get better with time, and some days might be harder than others but there will be moments of peace & acceptance and that’s what I’m looking forward to the most.
this hit. that part where you said i just miss her but it’s her choice i’ve felt that kind of quiet ache. like you’re finally calm but still bleeding a little.
I feel this too. It's weird, like quiet. Things are better, but it's still there. We're getting somewhere, step by step 🌿
I feel I should start to smoke even me also it's not getting better
Get you some thc drinks instead. They are very calming.
Thinking of going back to smoking again
Don't do it man. Thats one thing you really can't get rid of, especially in a break-up state. Been smoking for 4 years but right now its my life support. On the breakup day 16days ago i smoked 2 and a half packs. The next morning i couldn't breathe properly. Don't do it. DONT..