god I hate how she let me think about settling down at the age of 16-17! she dragged me along for a YEAR as an experiment to see if she could force herself to love someone. and, the worst part? we’re both trans and she said she wouldn’t like me anymore if I went on testosterone and was adamant on calling herself a lesbian while with me even though I am a MAN! I hate this shit. I still remember us talking about the apartment and how I’ve always dreamt of marriage and she usually would say “if we get married” but soon before the breakup she said “when we get married” WHEN. as if she wasn’t thinking about breaking up with me. and even more confusing, she sent me a NUDE THE DAY BEFORE?!?! - I am so confused about her signals. she told me how hot I was and made me feel comfortable in my body, but I don’t know if it was a lie?- she had sex with me SO OFTEN and made me feel confident- I put her into sub space a multitude of times and made her feel happy but apparently she never loved me? I am just so confused…
Last updated on:2025-08-01T02:32:02+05:30
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she gave mixed messages because she was unsure. but being unsure didn’t stop her from using closeness like a tool. it’s not on you to decode that.
that kind of back and forth messes with your head. one minute you feel safe. the next nothing makes sense. i used to sit with texts like that rereading, trying to understand. it never helped.
mine said you’re everything i want then dipped. the whole time i was convincing her to like me. she just wanted to see if it could work. i wasn’t a person to her. just proof.