Hi I wanted to share something here. In one of my last conversations with him, in order to make him reply to me I told him that I’m in dire need of money and that I went and came from a hospital. He sent me the money. I did not go to the hospital and all that. I did not want his money as well, I just wanted somebody to be there for me, I understood that he only reacts when I say I’m in a major crisis so my brain was like I have to create pain and urgency in order to be seen. I returned his money back just after moments. But, I still am ashamed of what I did.
Last updated on:2025-08-01T05:46:20+05:30
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sounds like you clocked the pattern. he only responds to emergencies so you made one. makes sense. not ideal but makes sense.
Yeah Not Ideal. I hope I’m able to forgive myself and heal myself from all this. Thanks for sharing
i get it. sometimes you just want them to show up and when they don’t you panic. you’re not awful. you were hurting.
Yeah I had anxiety and panick attacks and he left me even when I had them and when I couldn’t hold my breath after crying. It was too bad. Hope I find it in myself to be healed again. Thank you for validating
yeah i did that too. lied about being sick just to hear back. it’s messed up how they train you to need chaos for care.
Thank you for sharing. Hearing it from someone else feels like what I did was human. Hope we heal from all these 🥲