Today is day 39 and he hasn't even tried at all to break the no contact I been trying to establish. The withdrawal symptoms of missing him despite of the huge amount of pain he caused me is rearing it's ugly head. I want his touch, I want to hear him call me baby and tell me he was sorry.. my kind is trying to create a false reality where he would do this but in all reality and him being textbook narcassist I have to remind myself it wont happen. I hate that my love is trying to play games with me 😞
Last updated on:2025-08-04T04:12:02+05:30
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your brain knows what’s real but your heart keeps looping the rewrite. familiar story. it’s brutal when the two don’t match.
it’s wild how the body still wants the same person who wrecked it. mine did too. i had to keep reminding myself he wasn’t coming back how i needed.
i went 54 days thinking maybe he'd crack. nothing. just silence. like i was the one who broke him. fuck that. still wanted him every night tho. that part messed me up.
*mind not kind