Well after 7 days, I genuinely felt at peace with the decision that we had basically mutually made to end things (he was stronger in his conviction that it was the best thing for both of us now) and yet I missed his friendship

Well after 7 days, I genuinely felt at peace with the decision that we had basically mutually made to end things (he was stronger in his conviction that it was the best thing for both of us now) and yet I missed his friendship, I reached out yesterday, guys. I asked if platonic friendship was possible between us. I was worried he’d say no or ignore me, but he said yes, as long as it was understood that I can’t expect to get back together or be talking all day/get updates like when we used to date. I think he had the wrong idea since I had been chasing as I felt him pulling away for the last couple of months. I don’t want him back as is, we’d just be back at the same high stress, money problems discussions we just were. Nothing would have changed or be better for either of this, I know this. So I told him the truth which is I don’t expect anything anymore and said the words I’m definitely not trying to get back together. I guess it hurt that he was happy to hear that, but on the other hand based on his responses, which were very gentle and caring, and that he’s okay with me keeping in touch with his family members and for our kids to still talk, I could sense that he still loves me, which is nice because obviously my love hasn’t faded, I’m just trying to still come to terms with things day-to-day. I was happy and at peace with knowing that I’d have him in my life platonically, even if deep down I hope that we reconnect in years when our lives are better. I know in reality that if several years pass, both of us will have fully moved on and found someone else hopefully, so that’s very unlikely but it’s kind of a beautiful thought because we really didn’t have a bad relationship we just had a long distance one that we never fully got to explore because we were always on either vacation mode or trying to blend our lives mode and had our own financial and work insecurities, paired with the fact that I probably had abandonment issues and anxious attachment from being widowed and alone for so many years before meeting him. That’s what bugs me is we never got to give it a full try by being able to live together or do life together, and we had a very deep love. anyway after several days of having felt fine, talking to him and feeling happy that I could, why did I feel when I woke up totally in love again and sad today? Is it because I felt his care again and now I’m gonna be missing it all over again. I don’t really wanna go full no contact again though. But I haven’t messaged him today, because I don’t wanna be the only one initiating messages. It would be nice if he texted me on his own. The thing is if I initiate, he will continue to talk to me as long as we’re talking, but it’s always me initiating it now.. sigh

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