day 6. ive stayed distracted and working on myself and my relationship with God. dont know if im just distracted... but I still miss him sometimes. I hope he isn't falling into sin and temptation right now, i pray hes actually sitting with his feelings so he can heal. I want to be there for him so bad but I cannot keep burning myself just to keep the flame going, just like in our relationship. Im free, ive been delivered from the situation and god helped me. Just like how the isrealites were delivered from slavery in Egypt, yet wanted to go back when the route to their freedom got hard; I cannot go back, even if this peace is unfamiliar. Instead of reaching out, ill put it in God's hands and still pray for him. a part of me still hopes he reaches out to me, but I know his ego is stopping him. I will not reach out first, my dignity is on the line and I already gave too much to undeserving hands. I'll protect and give to myself. amen 💙
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it still sounds like grief.
i remember still praying for him too. even when he hurt me. that tug between love and peace is real. you’re not wrong for feeling both.
When we still choose to pray for them, it shows how good our hearts are. I think its better for inner peace to wish them well than spend time hating. ive been clowning him sm with my friends to help get over it lol, but deep down I still have a soft spot n know some of the love was real atleast
i begged him to try, to show up, to be honest. he stayed quiet. now i’m supposed to care if he’s healing? nah. i gave enough.
yeah they decide to do it finally when you're not asking and needing them to anymore?!?!
give yourself grace and take it one day at a time 🙏🏽
thank you 😊