Continued the “platonic friend” convo

Continued the “platonic friend” convo, with it ending yesterday that I texted too much, shouldn’t bring up things that we did as a couple (even wordle) even though I thought it was just something that we could still relate to or do as friends, and his impression that I’m trying to keep the flame alive. He said he wants to ease into our friendship more slowly and wanted more space. I basically feel stupid. I told him “I’ll let you lead” and he just said okay. I realize this means I might not hear from him for a while, and I’m okay with it, my ego has been bruised for now. I thought I was being very sparse & neutral with the texts, but that was his impression. Part of me still feels the need for space as a sign that he still gives a shit about me because otherwise he’s too calm and at peace about this. So firm in the conviction that I’ll find someone great for me that fits in my life better and we’re done. Meanwhile today I woke up just wrecked because I’m going to the fair tomorrow with my son and the last time we went was with him when our relationship was fresh and full of so much love, and fun, and hope for the future. So I’ve just cried all day. Then the job I interviewed for and felt so optimistic for informed me today that I didn’t get it. I’m tired of so much loss and disappointment and pain. And not having him to be the one I call and comfort me right now. My family called me, but I feel so alone and sad.

Last updated on:2025-08-07T01:34:02+05:30