Yesterday, I woke up to a message from him.
At 5 AM, he shared photos from our canoe trip that happened right before we broke up – his friend had developed them from her analog camera.
It’s been a little over a month since our breakup. Some days are a bit brighter, some are unbearable.
Why did he even send me the pictures? I cannot describe the pain of looking at them... The love you see on the sample was real – and yet, these pictures were taken less than a week before he left me. On that very trip, he told me multiple times how grateful he was to have me and how much he loved me.
Cut. A week later, he said we had to break up.
Yes, we had been fighting a lot lately, and I was struggling too.
But it was our first real crisis – and it only had one reason and one solution:
he would have had to try to hear me and stop ignoring my emotions.
He saw me as the troublemaker because I was the one starting the arguments –
which was true, because he kept hurting me in the same spot again and again and never tried to understand why it hurt.
Maybe our empathy gap really was unbridgeable… But it hurts so much that he gave up instead of trying.
It hurts so much looking at these pictures and remembering the feelings.
And yet, I can’t stop looking at them and dwelling on the tiny, fake hope that he may realize what we had which I know is an illusion. 💔
Last updated on:2025-08-07T07:46:02+05:30
Comments (7)
maybe he sent them for him, not you. people do that when they’re unsure or guilty. it doesn’t mean you owe him your heart again.
sounds so much like mine damn
i held onto messages like that too. the timing makes it feel like everything was a lie. but it wasn’t. not all of it.
Mine said a lot of reassuring words, and accepted his mistakes and said he would change and all in the next second to be gone. I understood not to believe what is being said rather to believe what their actions show. Sending warmth ⛅️
Same here.
Have been welcoming him back over and over, that it felt like a routine.
But one day, he left without a goodbye, and not even an explanation.
I am hurt as I question myself on what went wrong. My confidence and esteem has lowered.😔
@GlimmerFlick54 I’ve done that too letting him back again and again. that makes you human and not weak. weak believed in their potential to be. You’re a wonderful human being for doing that. Don’t doubt yourself. you are worthy of something much greater and fulfilling. 😌
he said all that and still left. i don’t care what the pics show. if he meant any of it, he’d still be here.