Today on a whim here at day 44 I for the first time looked on social media and found that he created an entire new Facebook

Today on a whim here at day 44 I for the first time looked on social media and found that he created an entire new Facebook. I just kills me because his profile picture and me knowing every single expression of his eyes could tell that he took it after possibly crying. I have been feeling such loss and suffering wondering if day in and day out if he thinks of me but as much as he hurt me the pain I seen in his eyes matched how I been feeling this whole time. I wonder if its beginning to sink in the decisions he made that had him lose his wife and children. I also am so afraid of him moving on to someone else. We are still currently married but separated and every time I let him back things just got worse and worse with his addiction problem, lying, sneaking and putting hands on me. Part of me wishes I could hold him but the other part of me knows that this silence is something that I have to do for my kiddos and I healing. 4 years is a long time to just undo memories especially when things seemed to be getting back on track and then he stopped. Loving an addict is so so hard 😭

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