I can't stop thinking about you. Believe me, I'm trying my best. I'm trying to take care of something, I'm looking for new things to do. My loved ones are trying to help me, but sometimes I feel like I'd rather be alone. I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't want to hear about how terrible you are again. That I should let it go, that it will pass and one day I will stop loving you. The problem is that I don't want to. I'm afraid. I've loved you for the last 5 years. I don't know another me. Only the one head over heels in love, devoted at any time, ready for anything with you. I gave so much of myself. I tried so hard, I tried to save us so many times. What else could I do? Why did you stop loving me? I'm trying to remember the moment when you started to distance yourself from me. And I don't know. I don't know how I could have missed it, but maybe it's because you slowly desalted. In small steps, day after day, you closed yourself in front of me. What did I do wrong? Why didn't you trust me? I have so many questions in my head, and only silence answers me. Terrible, dark emptiness. It's been 8 days since I last heard your voice. You haunt me in my dreams. I feel like I'm about to go crazy. I'm sitting in the middle of a huge black hole. What was I missing? What else could I do for you? Why did you abandon me?
My family is suffering, looking at how tired I am. They ask me to stop crying, they say it's not worth it. I don't know what it means. It was always worth it for me. I never doubted it. I never hesitated in our love. In my love for you. Where did you go? I want to be alone but with you.
Last updated on:2025-08-11T06:25:03+05:30
Comments (5)
i felt that same emptiness when mine left. it’s ok if you’re not ready to stop loving yet. it’s just where you are right now.
you faded out long before the breakup, so you never got a clear moment to see it happening. that messes with your head.
i remember counting the days like that. checking my phone even when i knew nothing was coming. it’s like slow torture you can’t look away from.
This is exactly my story too! I did some volunteering and it made me feel better to help others and helped me dithering about my problems for awhile. I'm on day 47 of no contact. Been broken up from a 7 year relationship for 3 months now.
Same feeling