wow, it has been 4 days since we talked. i used to check my phone all the time to see if you were active. i used to tell you and send you a message every time something funny happened to me, even very small things. i thought about you and sent you a message... i could not see an "active now" without sending you a message. look at us now, 4 days... the first two days i spent crying and in the cycle of crying for one hour and calming down the next hour. my mom was so worried that she made an appointment with a psychologist for me, something i am really thankful for and it helped me a lot. yesterday i went and today i feel like i cannot cry, more calm when i think of you. i really think of you all the time, i want to tell you everything that happened to me in the day. people always tell me to do other things to distract myself, but i cannot, everything reminds me of you. waiting until 3 in the morning to see your message about how your day was. you did not have a phone and could only connect on your computer to talk all night if you wanted. i love you, i think of you, i do not want to get over you or forget you, i feel like that is losing you a second time... i already lost you once and i do not want to lose you again. i love you. even if today i am more calm when i think of you, not like other days when my heart was fast and i felt nervous all the time. i love you. i want the best for you, we ended because it was the best. but i miss you so much. i do not want to say please come back, but that is what i really want right now... selfish thoughts. i need to take them out now. i will tell the story in another post, thank you for reading. i want to let my feelings out. thank you, person reading this.
Last updated on:2025-08-12T02:35:03+05:30
Comments (4)
reads like he is still talking to you in ur head even without sending a message.
i used to count hours too. every little thing made me want to share it. it’s strange when that just… stops.
i remember feeling like i was going to explode if i didn’t tell him what happened in my day. it’s messed up how quick that turns into silence.
keep strong mate. it really hurts. my wife ended things a month ago. I miss her so much. but I know this past week has been easier than previous 3. I'm doing a lot of work on myself. mentally and physically. ride the waves and it will get a little easier.
I'm changing so much about myself as I can't carry on living the way I had for past few years. I hope eventually this will bring us back together but if it doesn't at least I'll be in a better place, and also the better person, as she never works on her issues.