it's has been 48 days since we officially broke up

sounds like you held on until yesterday, then something shifted. 48 days is a long time to sit with someone else’s hesitation. that says a lot about how much you cared.

its 48 days for me as well. this week has been hard for me for some reason as well. I really thought I was over the worst of it. I am not even really wanting to be back with him, just hurts that he doesn't choose me anymore. it hurts because for the 6 years we were together he was always the chaser and I was the avoidant. I was scared of exactly what ended up happening... he chose someone else over me...

i kept waiting for him to just decide, like maybe he’d wake up one day and choose me fully. that waiting drained me more than the breakup itself.

felt so stupid holding onto hope when he already checked out. nothing burns like knowing you were sure and they were shaky the whole time.