Today is the 45th day of no contact, I haven't cried in weeks and i wanted to post something on tiktok. I was writing some lyrics in the sunset, mostly about my pain. It's a photo that also brings me a lot of joy and peace. I used to write in a book that I was planning to give her on our 3rd anniversary, it had over 30 songs written just for her, never reached her since we were having a lot of fights and it felt not a good time to give her that, we were going to Sicily, Italy anyway. As i was doing edits on that post, I stumbled on a song snowfall - øneheart. This song is like the first song we had on our ever together post on all socials, it surfaced that memory so clearly, us walking in the snow, being happy and we actually loved each other. After hearing that song for some time I just started bawling my eyes out ngl, it felt as such a deep memory because how important it was for me and I couldn't stop for an hour. It's also a reminder for me that healing is not a straight line that goes up, has ups and downs, but I'm glad I stumbled across this, after all I was happy at that time and I can't deny that.
Last updated on:2025-08-25T03:22:58+05:30
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he already knows healing isn’t just forward. he cried hard but also noticed the peace in writing and the joy in that photo. both things can sit there at onc
um, i m confused about what you wrote😆
i had a playlist with someone and every track felt like a landmine after we broke up. it’s rough but also kinda sweet that you can still smile at the memory too.
yeah, all I can do is smile, no point in feeling bad or cry. After all she was a person I loved, still do but not as much, don't think it was the same for her.
i hated when music did that to me. thought i was fine then some random song ripped me open. makes you feel dumb for thinking you were moving on.
Yeah, they do. it s better that I discovered them now rather than later to mess me up.
you are not alone ❤️