Two days ago my ex came to the flat to get her things. I kept it practical just bills and who’s keeping what and after about 10 minutes I left her to it. Once she’d gone, I packed my bag and headed to Scotland for the bank holiday. It’s been beautiful out here. On the first morning I got up at 5:30 to watch the sunrise, and it was stunning but even then I wished she was there to see it with me. She’s been on my mind constantly, I’ve dreamed about her every night, and when it gets dark, I’ve cried. Yesterday the urge to message her was overwhelming I even typed something out, but I didn’t send it. That was hard, but I know it was the right choice. She told me she loves me, cares for me, but isn’t in love with me anymore. That’s the hardest part it’s not like we had an argument I can fix, you can’t chase someone back into love. So I’m journaling, reflecting, meditating, and working on my short-term and long-term goals while I’m out here. Still, I’ll be honest I’m debating heading home a day early. As healing as this trip has been, it’s also exhausting carrying these feelings. I love her and I hope she’s healing too letting it out, showing emotion, and growing in her own way. For me, all I can do is keep taking it one day at a time
Last updated on:2025-08-25T05:42:03+05:30
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what stood out to me is he’s doing all the right things traveling journaling watching sunrises but he still admits it’s exhausting. that’s the part no one tells you how even good healing stuff can feel draining when the person is still in your head.
I really admire you
when my ex came to get her stuff i tried to be strong and calm but the second the door shut i broke down. i still saw her in everything for weeks after. i think it’s brave you didn’t send that message, i couldn’t hold back at first. those little choices matter more than it feels like in the moment.
that line word for word, “i care about you but i’m not in love with you.” i wanted to smash my phone when i heard it. like ok cool so all the love i poured in just… wasn’t enough. it makes every sunrise or song or beer feel like a reminder she’s not there. i hate how it sneaks in even when you’re trying to do something good for yourself.
yep it sucks, it stings but we can do this. we can grow. we can learn from this and eventually maybe find someone else. we just need to accept it mate, feel it and let it go.
@TurboBuzz261 but your right it does sneak in and I fucking hate it !!!!