I keep making the mistake of talking to him. I know its not good for me but I'm not strong enough to stop, I truly don't know how. And as soon as we talk I feel myself get attached and feel all these dreadful feelings of false hope creep in, I almost feel delusional because i cant keep myself from feeling like everything is normal and of course he'll message me when he wakes up.🤡 I've been left on read now since Sunday and I can't keep myself from feeling absolutely worthless and rejected. And every time I do manage to not reply he always messages me a few days later and Im back to square one again. Sucks when you're your own worst enemy 😔
Last updated on:2025-08-31T08:22:58+05:30
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feels like when i watched my friend check her phone nonstop. she’d light up at his name, then crash when he went silent. she said it made her feel like she wasn’t enough, but really it was just him doing the bare minimum.
i’d swear i was done then he’d reach out and it felt safe again even though it never was. it didn’t make me weak it just showed how much i cared even when he didn’t.
It's been 7,5months since everything changed, and I still haven't reached that moment when I swear I'm done. I'm so terrified of losing him completely if I tell him how im actually feeling or put any sort of pressure on him and I don't even have him anymore. It's ridiculous.
i used to feel like a clown too waiting on that text like it meant something. he’d disappear then pop back up like nothing and i’d fold every time. i hated myself more for letting it happen than for him ignoring me.
It made more sense to me before when he ignored me and didnt even open my message for weeks because I understood why. I didn't blame him. It was easier to accept him leaving me behind because why wouldn't he? Than making that decision myself of leaving. Feeling so fully rejected was a relief at the same time as it was the most unbearable pain I have ever felt. Because it didn't give me a choice.. but this coming and going it worse. it's like he's toying with me and I can't even walk away. .-.
This happens with me too, the best thing to do is just be strong for yourself and not respond. block him if you have to and keep him blocked. I had to delete social media just to get him to stop reaching out at one point.
I have never blocked anyone and I'm not sure I ever will. It's just not who I am for better or most likely for worse.. I lived woth him for 2 years and just shutting someone out whos been such a big part of life feels wrong to me. We said we would try to be "friends" but the way he's reaching out is definitely more than that but I'm terrified of engaging because I know it'll just break me more when he goes quiet again. I've deleted apps from my phone because they're too much of a reminder of him. but there is only so much I can delete without isolating myself from completely. truly wish I had a idgaf personality and could just be like "whatever.. his loss" but yikes I'm so far from that it's not even funny. 🥲
@Jelliebean I completely understand. I lived with him for two years too but have loved him and been on and off for 10 years so I think the only way for me to truly be free is to make sure he never has access to me again.
This also happens with me. Why do we do this when the other person used us as a doll? Our heart is just stupid af. Just don't go back to the hell no matter what.
I'll share the advice a friend gave to me today: Do what's good for you, instead of what you want
I don't know how, I get so filled with anxiety and regret over choices I make because they might be wrong. I second guess every move I make. 💀
I understand. As of yesterday I got denied from my ex to get back together after he was the one who wanted to get back together (and broke up with me in the first place) but really he wanted to keep me as an option. He texted me that we don't view a lot of things the same way and I want so badly to respond and tell him he is wrong because he did misunderstand me on my views about dating. But I have to know my worth is better then him. And because of this I had to restart my healing because of that false hope. But I decided it's time to let him go as much as I really don't want to. A person who is not going to put their time into you is not worth putting your time into them. I know the last thing you want to hear is "the right person will find you when the time is right" but it is true. Until then, it's time to leave them behind, the hurt is not going to go away but it is time to allow yourself to move on. Focus on yourself and do the things you love, seek help from others, but do not reach out to him anymore. So he left you on read, so what? They are not your responsibility, go be your own person and wait for the one who will treat you the way you deserve because you are worth way more then that person. You are not worthless I promise, and he doesn't deserve you one bit. Be the best version of yourself for the person that it will actually matter to someday. And I'm going through hurt right now too and I know this is the last thing you want to hear, but just know, your emotions are valid, let yourself be sad, but don't forget you are worth more then then and they are not worth your time or energy. Hang in there ❤️