Today is really hard for me. It's been almost a week since he broke up with me and the healing is even harder now that I gave him a second chance after he asked for it and then decided he wasn't ready. He gave me false hope and now there's this feeling that if I played my cards right we could be back together today, but instead there is absolutely no chance we will ever get back together and it hurts. I usually am so excited about fall by now but we had so many plans for fall so now I'm dreading it. We had so many plans together and now I feel so hopeless and alone. Everything sets me off and reminds me of him, the gym, stranger things, piano, Halloween horror nights, frozen, vacations we had planned already, and a bunch of other random things that I didn't know would hurt so badly to think of. I just want him so bad and I want to be with him more then anything, but it's over and I will never get those things and I am in so much pain and hurt and I just want to heal already. I also just want to enjoy those things I used to love like stranger things, the gym, HHN, but I just can't because it reminds me too much of him.
Last updated on:2025-08-29T05:39:25+05:30
Comments (4)
i understand what you feel, i also give him second chance but he cheated again but it does not affect how I see my worth since it's his decision and behavior.
the way you list everything, it feels like your brain is scanning for him in every corner. gym, shows, holidays, plans. it’s like the breakup rewired how you see things, and right now it’s still raw.
remember dreading the seasons too. fall used to be my favorite, then it felt like every pumpkin or leaf was just a reminder of what i lost. i wanted to enjoy it but it hurt too much. it slowly shifted, not all at once, but the pain around those things softened over time.
yeah i get it. mine said he wanted me back too then changed his mind like a week later. i felt like an idiot for believing him. every single thing turned into a reminder and it pissed me off because i didn’t even ask for those memories. i hated how he got to just walk away while i was stuck drowning in everything we planned.