Today is two months since the breakup and exactly two weeks since I last saw him. I miss him terribly.
Unfortunately, I'm beginning to painfully realize that he hasn't really loved me for a long time. I don't think he misses. He doesn't think about me, he has already forgotten. It hurts, because he was my whole world for the last 5 years.
I ask myself so many questions. I have better and worse days, but lately I've been thinking about what I've done wrong. I'm so sorry because I know I was naive. I was naive thinking that he would notice his flaws and stand up to fight them, for me. Just like I did it for him. I was naive because he preferred to run away from problems and pretend they didn't have them. That I am the one who is "oversensitive". I would love to help him so badly. But he doesn't want my help anymore. He has already started a new life in which there is no place for me.
I'm afraid he'll never be happy. That he will never wake up and notice that he is destroying himself. And I'm so afraid that I'll never be happy again. That I will never love so much again. Sometimes I even think I don't want to love like that anymore.
How much more must pass? When will it stop hurting so damn much?
Last updated on:2025-08-28T22:54:03+05:30
Comments (4)
what you wrote about him calling you oversensitive, that hit me. sounds like you kept showing up and he kept dodging. he probably did that for a long time before you saw it.
i remember missing my ex so bad that even silence felt loud. i thought i’d never love again either. that feeling faded slower than i wanted but it did shift. the ache wasn’t forever.
i felt the same when mine ended. i kept replaying it like, how could he move on so fast when i was still dying inside. i hated that i fought for him while he just checked out. made me feel like i was the fool.
Its a bit over 1 month in my case, but I'm in the same situation, having the same thoughts and feelings. You are not alone, we will be better one day❤️