I dont know
I dont know. I sent him so many messages of how much I hate him. but i just want him to hold me. I have no one that can hold me without me flinching. I feel like ill die if I dont have the safety of his arms but I just made HELLA sure to burn that bridge with the words I said. it was over anyways. IT WAS OVER ANYWAYS AND HES A BAD PERSON BUT FUCK FUCK I HATE THIS SO MUCH I NEED TO BE IN SOMEONE ARMS SO FUCKING BAD. I WANT TO SEE HIM SO MUCH. but not like this. ive been dying without him. I keep dying, a slow death. my health declining, my skin pale, my heart filled with pain and pushing away everyone I love. I need to see him so fucking bad I cant take this
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i used to crave his arms like air even when he hurt me. i thought i’d break without him near. the nights felt endless. my body was shaking all the time like withdrawal. it wasn’t love it was survival.
i remember sending those texts too all that hate like if i spit enough venom it would make me stop wanting him. it didn’t. i still wanted to crawl back into his arms while the words were still on the screen. it’s sick how much i wanted the same person i swore i hated.
I hate the feeling of when that's all you want is to be held but they make you mad so u say all this errelivent shit that really means nothing but everything at the same time and really u just want to be held and him say it's ok I love you