Day 11
Today has been tough. The past week I’ve thrown myself into running, the gym, even the spa. I’ve also been in and out of hospital with a kidney stone. But this afternoon the weight of it hit me again I really miss her. imiss her laugh, our conversations, her little habits around the house, and I miss her body. It’s hard because she told me she still cares for me deeply and does love me, but she’s just not in love with me. I moved her things from the bedroom and sitting room into the kitchen because the reminders were too much. She was upset by that, and I get it she’s hurting too. I guessshe ended it before it turned into resentment, and that the hurt now is worth the happiness in the future. She still wants to be friends, and we were friends for two years before our four-year relationship. But right now I’ve told her I can’t. I need to get through these feelings first. it’s hard, but I’m doing my best to keep moving forward. I can't stop but hope we reconnect knt he future even tho I should hope that. I tell my self I'm bettering my self for me. I know what I dke. wrong I t he relationship we let the romance die. day to day chores no date nights her smoking weed and me stopping and going to to my own hobbies instead. it's just shite.
Last updated on:2025-09-01T01:26:02+05:30
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this it feels like you’re still holding both ends, wanting her back but also knowing why it ended. i did that too, telling myself it was about self improvement when deep down i was hoping she’d notice.
i get the missing part, even the small things like sounds around the house. i tried keeping busy too, gym, work, whatever, but the quiet moments hit the hardest. i told my ex the same, i couldn’t be her friend yet.
i hated that line “i love you but i’m not in love with you.” it felt like being thrown away but gently. i remember packing her stuff too, every little thing felt like it cut me open. i told myself it was for the best but it just felt like shit.
I honestly find it easier to move on without being friends. I’m on day 13 and haven’t seen or talked to him even though he still has to get his stuff from my house.