i gave in and feel horrible. when i woke up and didnt have clear state of mind. please remember he is a homeless drug addict which makes it so much harder. i message him this morning asking for sign of life, he replied he was ok and that was it. now its taking everything not to reply asking if he needs anything or if hes good but i guess just asking if hes ok and leaving it at that is a great step because usually id bend over backwards, drive to town and give him food, smokes or wtv. but i blew 5 days of no contact at all and now im trying to tell myself it was one mistake, i didnt blow it all away and trying to convince myself not to keep going at this point..
Last updated on:2025-09-01T03:41:02+05:30
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looks like you’re measuring it like a reset, but it’s more like you tested your limits. you reached out, he replied short, and you stopped. that’s different from what you did before.
you didn’t erase the 5 days. i slipped after a stretch once, and it still mattered that i’d pulled back before. it showed me i was capable.
i used to cave too. one text turned into me driving across town like a fool, handing him money i couldn’t afford. i’d go home hating myself.
anddddd guesss where im going 🤦♀️🤦♀️🤦♀️ how did you get over doing that? i feel so guilty
Do not beat yourself up over this! It just proves that you are a good person and that you have a good heart. Try to focus on yourself, pouring into yourself all the care and the attention you used to pour into him.
once i knew he was ok, i decided to bring my dog for a walk and leave my phone behind so i wouldnt keep the conversation going. i have a big dog, the weather is cooling down, i decided today is the day im going to start walking him again so i dont make the same mistake.