was feeling soooo strong. had 5 days of no contact. for the first weekend I had no work (no overtime available) and no kids. i havent had a weekend like that in foreverrrrrr. no only did i reach out and broke the no contact, we went for coffee and im currently doing his laundry and bringing it back to him tomorrow (hes homeless). how can you stop yourself from caring to the extent that you dont worry constantly when hes so vulnerable, being a homeless drug addict. i know its not my fault and its his choice but I can't just shut that switch off of trying to make his life a little bit easier. but if i do that, im starting the hurt all over again. ugh it sounds so dumb saying it out loud. 🤦‍♀️
Last updated on:2025-09-02T01:37:02+05:30
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you’re carrying a lot for him while still trying to protect yourself, it’s like walking on a tightrope. that tension is obvious just from how you describe it.
i get why you can’t flip the switch, it’s hard seeing someone suffer and feeling like you could help. i’ve been there, wanting to fix everything and ending up drained and sad too.
i spent nights obsessing over someone who was crashing hard and i kept thinking if i just did a little more maybe it’d change something. it never did, i just got crushed every time.