it’s been 5 days and I’m filled with so much disgust. it’s like I see all the deceit and lies during the relationship with so much clarity and I’m so angry and full of hate. this isn’t in my nature but I can’t help it. I think of him and all I have are huge waves of anger and disgust. I also know I will heal and get better. I just can’t wrap my head around how someone can make another person feel like nothing, not consider them whilst taking on the huge responsibility of being in a relationship, how sneaky you have to be to lie the way he did. but then the waves pass and I’m stuck in mourning him, I’m stuck on missing my best friend.
Last updated on:2025-09-01T23:04:03+05:30
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you’re holding two truths at once, hating who he showed himself to be and missing the version of him you knew. it makes sense you’re stuck between them.
I’m also on day 5 but I actually feel super drained and tired it started out with anger like u. so I’m curious did u feel sad at all or still just feeling rage and anger?
I hear you loud and clear and felt those emotions also but as the days move on I feel those emotions less and am starting to believe in myself and staying strong so he can never disrespect me ever again. It feels lonely without him but all the chaos and draining of my energy is now well and truly over. Stay strong x
i know the rage and the sadness can live together, i went through it. i remember crying for the person i loved and hating the person he was at the same time. it’s messy but it’s real.
every memory tasted bitter, every lie flashing in my head. i hated him for how easily he could pretend. i wanted to scream at the world for letting me feel that way and at him for being a coward.