I really miss him and I want him so freaking badly right now. I was doing better the past few days but now I'm moving backwards again. I was emotionally abused by him while in the relationship but at the end of the day I loved him and I still do. I am so sensitive and emotional and I have such a big heart that I am in so much pain. I've heard the "it'll get better" "there's someone else out there" "he wasn't worth it" but I can't hear it anymore. I'm in so much pain and I'm already struggling with so many other things and I just can't handle this being my life anymore. My chest physically hurts and I want him so badly. I can't move on because I love him so much, and he's been teasing me by being friends and putting songs about missing me on his Instagram and then deciding he wants nothing to do with me the next second. I need him right now, I'm going through so much and this is just the cherry on top. I'm so lost, I'm going to therapy now but I don't know what to do. I don't want to do this anymore.
Last updated on:2025-09-02T21:33:02+05:30
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it sounds like your body is carrying it as much as your mind. chest pain craving exhaustion. i had the same thing like my nervous system was wired to him and kept glitching when he pulled away.
i remember loving someone who hurt me too and the ache in my chest felt like i couldn’t breathe. therapy didn’t make it disappear fast but it gave me somewhere safe to bring all that pain.
i hated that whiplash. one day he’d post shit that made me think i still mattered, next day he acted like i was dirt. it made me feel insane, like i was begging for scraps.