Today we went back to school, and even though I knew it would hurt to see him, I don’t know why I wanted it so badly. I wasn’t lucky, or unlucky enough to run into him in the hallways. I really wanted to see him.
Last updated on:2025-09-02T23:11:03+05:30
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you walked in already knowing it would hurt but still hoping for it. that’s how i was too, chasing after something even when i knew it would wreck me after.
i once went to class early just hoping to catch a glimpse, even though i knew it would sting. it was like my heart wanted any scrap it could get.
i used to wander the halls pretending i had somewhere to be just to maybe bump into him. when i didn’t it pissed me off even more like i wasted the whole day waiting for a ghost.
I went through the same thing. I was keeping my gaze around everyone to see if he'd pop up somewhere. At the time, I wasn't really sure why. But now I think I know why I was doing it. I think a part of me wishes that I could see his reaction when he would see me(because I was supposed to move schools but haven't yet) and he'd be hurt and maybe regretful. I wanted to show him that I was perfectly okay and maybe make him suffer a little bit. However, the reaction I did end of getting was not anything like that. Instead he has been trying to stay completely far away from me and when he does look at me, it's filled with this fake hatred. Which I think just shows how weak of a person he was, because his default choice to acknowledge me is to just hate me when he did nothing. It shows he must hate himself for a lot of things and he doesn't even know how to deal with this situation so he just pretends to be tough acting like I'm the wrong that was in the wrong. So take it from me, it's not worth it whether you see him or you don't see him, at the end of the day it doesn't matter and he doesn't matter. Your life will be better without him in it. Just give it time and you will start to feel better and stronger.