What are we doing? I love him although it feels like he manipulates my vulnerability for him. Just like that I was intimate with him last night we spent the entire weekend together to bed my delusional fantasy that he would miss me as much if not more than I do him. In our inseperability suddenly only we stand alone to face our toxicity. Is it true that relationships are hard work full of determination to defeat opposition to love without fear, care, or regret. Commitment to want each other even when it hurts. Devotion to one another's feelings. Vowing to never leave ones side. The ability to forsake your own selfishness for the mere opportunity to be cared for genuinely by another soul and cherished by another's smile.
Last updated on:2025-09-02T22:56:03+05:30
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this feels like you’re holding on to the idea of love more than the way it actually plays out between you two. i did that too, tried to explain the pain as part of what love is supposed to be.
i remember believing if we stayed close enough he’d finally see me the way i saw him. i clung to those weekends like proof of love. it wasn’t proof, but at the time it felt like it.
i used to sleep with him just to feel wanted for a night. told myself it meant something, then he’d pull away and i’d feel stupid again. i hated how i kept letting it happen.