Today I was tired, resting in the classrooms during my free hours. I lifted my gaze and saw a guy who looked way too much like him on the other side. He looked so much like him, but I wasn’t sure if it was really him. He had his back turned, took out his headphones, and started listening to music.
I checked his schedule to confirm if that was the time he was supposed to have class. Apparently, his schedule had already ended, since he wasn’t enrolled in the subjects listed, however, he was standing right in the classroom where the rest of his group was supposed to be. He would never stay behind for anything in the world… so I ruled out that it was him. I saw a short girl sit next to him and it seemed like she leaned on his shoulder. I was 100% sure it wasn’t him, but he looked so much like him that I couldn’t stop staring. While looking at him, I kept saying things in my head.
The girl left and then my friend arrived. I asked her if she thought the boy in the other building was my ex, but honestly, it was very hard to tell. She started talking about how little she had slept and how awful her classes were, and I tried to pay attention to what she was saying, but I couldn’t help glancing at that boy and getting distracted. He placed his hand on the railing, and I saw that he had a white bracelet, just like my ex’s. I took a photo to zoom in and check if it was the same one, but it was too blurry… impossible to know.
I kept trying not to think about it and focused on my friend, even started talking, but then my eyes drifted back to the boy. He was looking at me. As soon as I saw him, he quickly turned toward the wall to keep listening to his music. I didn’t recognize his gaze, it didn’t feel familiar, so I confirmed to myself that maybe he wasn’t my ex.
Class time came, and I left. My friend went to student services to sort out some problems with her ID card, but suddenly I got a message saying:
“It can’t be… I just ran into him. The guy you were looking at, it was him, he’s wearing the same shirt. He was with his friends.”
I couldn’t believe it, impossible, I still don’t believe it. There’s no way it was him… I would’ve recognized his eyes, right? The problem is that now I don’t know how to feel about it. I want him to come up to me… but at the same time I don’t. Every time we switch classes, I get this horrible tachycardia and sweating, thinking I might run into him walking around, or that he’s watching me. I had seen him once in a classroom close to mine, and I couldn’t calm down for the whole class!!! As soon as I left, I went to the bathroom because I felt like throwing up.
I can’t help but wonder… who was that girl who sat next to him? Why did she sit so close… what was his relationship with the two girls he was talking to the day before?
Last updated on:2025-09-05T23:09:03+05:30
Comments (3)
what stood out to me is how your focus kept snapping back to him no matter what else was happening. even when your friend was talking, even when you tried to convince yourself it wasn’t him. it shows how your mind still circles around him without you choosing it.
i get why your body reacted like that. i used to shake when i thought i saw mine like my whole system went into panic mode. i’d tell myself it wasn’t him just to calm down then later find out it was. it’s a lot to carry in such a normal space like class.
seeing my ex across campus once and it felt like the air got ripped out of me. i couldn’t think straight couldn’t even hear what my friend was saying. every little move he made burned into my head and i hated that i still cared that much.