I want to see how good it can get.
It's only been 5 days since I stopped all communication from my end. It still hurts very much sometimes, but I think I can already feel how the waves of anxiety are becoming weaker and weaker.
I've even learned some new coping mechanisms and techniques to detach. Nevertheless, life still feels incredibly lonely without him. I'm not a very social person and never was really interested in making friends... But this also shows me that I already know that I can thrive on my own.
I want to see what happens when I'm no longer the one fixing things. To be no longer the first to reach out.
Last updated on:2025-09-09T00:48:03+05:30
Comments (5)
you’re testing what life is like without always being the fixer. that part hit me too, just observing yourself change without someone else steering things
the one that still hits sometimes even after weeks. it sucked, but i also noticed the little things i could do for myself, like you said, and it mattered more than i thought
i spent months waiting for him to text first, feeling like every silence was a punch. it was so lonely but also kinda freeing once i stopped chasing
Thanks for your post. less than 24 hours here qnd it’s painful! Finding it helpful to comment or post here every time I want to text him
No worries! I feel exactly the same. I am so happy that I discovered this app a few days ago. It's been incredibly helpful! Whenever I have the urge to text or call him, I am opening the app instead to journal, comment, read or post something here. It's inspiring to see how far people have come in their healing journey and it reminds me that I am not alone 🤗