waiting for his sobriety, being as understanding as i can when it comes to only hearing from him once every few days. everyone in his life has given up on him. when we hangout and he uses and starts nodding, he knows i get upset and bring him home. he wants sobriety, hes done it before and lasted 2 weeks with me making sure he had what he needed, the minute he felt good, he went to see his street family and that was it for another 3 months. thats how its been for 2 years. goes great for a few weeks then no contact for months then I worry and check up and the vicious cycle continues. hes never had anyone stick around, i promised him i wouldnt give up on him but its taking away from my energy as a parent, a worker, ect. no matter how hard i try, even though its not my fault or responsibility, i just can't seem to let go. its like that one text every 2-3 days, that 30 minute heart to heart convo before he nods off, makes everything seem worth it but the rest is sooo hard. 🥺
Last updated on:2025-09-08T23:59:02+05:30
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you’re holding on to the small windows of connection, even though most of the time it’s chaos. that push and pull keeps you stuck in the middle.
waiting for those moments, clinging to them like they mattered more than air, feeling torn between love and exhaustion. you’re allowed to feel everything you feel.
it drains you till you’re hollow, makes you feel like you’re fighting a war alone, and every tiny “good day” just drags you back in. i hated myself for hoping it’d last.
Hi girl, the love you give to him so deep and real. But it's time to love yourself first, see your story, in the end he must to heal his self first or the pattern will come around always. I know it's will be hard to try but slowly and sure. You can do it girlss ❣️