so today has been not so good for me... I'm getting these urges to contact her. the utter silence from her side is killing me. till now I have been able to control myself. I just want her to reach out once... atleast ask me about how I have been. but I don't think this fantasy of mine will become true or not. I know I can try and contact her right now. but also know this would be huge mistake. I miss her... I truly loved her... don't know when I'm going to find some peace.
Last updated on:2025-09-10T07:03:02+05:30
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this reminds me of me sitting with the same thought every night, debating if i should break the silence. it never felt like a choice that had a good side.
i used to draft messages then delete them before sending. the quiet felt endless. i just wanted a small sign that i still mattered.
staring at my phone like it owed me something. silence made me feel invisible. i hated that she got to walk away and i was left choking on nothing.
I relate a lot to what you’re saying. Everytime I get this urge, I think of what I’d like to say and I get sad. Then, I think of how he’d likely reply and I know his reaction wouldn’t make me feel better. So I don’t contact him for another day. I just need to keep this going until I don’t feel this urge anymore. It’s only been 4 days and it feels like a month.
I feel you, it will be better soon! We can all work on ourselves and see what the future holds on for us. Maybe both of the persons grow and mature to be together again.