it's the first morning without her and i feel lost. i didn't realize how down for me she actually was she motivated me to clean my room shower regularly take ged classes. and just generally care about myself. i repaid that favor by lying about an addiction for two months and making her look foolish. All i want to do is talk to her and make sure she is ok. I always cared about her more than myself but she's gone and I don't know how to continue. I don't know if i can. I hate this.
Last updated on:2025-09-10T05:17:45+05:30
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i see someone noticing how much of their daily life was tied to her presence. the routines, the energy, even basic care. it’s like the absence is louder than anything else.
only thing louder is the silence but her and i chatted and said our final goodbyes and i think i needed that closure and perhaps she did too. i'm just taking this time to allow myself to feel and grieve properly.
when my ex left i kept replaying the little things she did for me like reminding me to eat or pushing me to shower. i felt like i lost my anchor. it makes sense you’re hurting like this.
waking up and realizing she wasn’t gonna text me anymore. it felt like my chest was crushed. i couldn’t even look at the bed without feeling sick.
yeah i'm in the same boat. Here's hoping it gets better.