So i gave in to no contact over and over because hes homeless and I worry. I cared about him so much. If i didn't hear from him, I panicked and didn't sleep. i tried no contact and should've stuck to it. I saw him a week ago, drove him around town to get things done. We got into a little fight 2 days ago, he made me feel bad that he was sleeping in a tent, giving me this pitty story then didnt answer alllllll day when i asked if he was ok, well got news at 4am this morning that hes more then ok, hes at the shelter sleeping with someone else. i'm LIVID. I just want to scream, cry, puke. I don't even know what to do with myself. i spent 2 years sleeping alone waiting for him and the sobriety he promised and now im wondering how long has this been going on, how many more? was it all a lie ? why did I deserve this. i'm BROKEN.
Last updated on:2025-09-10T20:43:02+05:30
Comments (5)
let him go he is no good
you carried him for years while he didn’t keep his side, and the shock of finding out now is crushing. it makes sense you feel flipped inside.
that heartbreak feeling like every promise was fake. it’s okay to feel wrecked i stayed in bed all day once just letting it hit me. it doesn’t make you weak.
oh man i felt that. gave everything, stayed up crying waiting hoping then found out he were lying the whole time. i screamed in my car alone for hours hated myself for trusting.
like im bawling thinking he ODd or something and that i'd get "the call" that i've been dreading and worrying about for 2 years and wake up to someone telling me that. my entire body just got so warm. He's going to wake up to a message or two, or 20 but no contact no more. im tired of crying over nothing all the time.