today I got bored and stalked his Spotify (ik it's weird but I wanted to see) and he made a playlist called "I wish my ex was d€@d. it made me feel some type away I knew he was talking about me bc when I open the playlist I saw he puts some songs he knew I rly rly rly liked and that his ex before didn't mind. I truly don't know what I did to him. I told him that he was being toxic and that I needed to break up bc I felt rly depressed I never ment to hurt him sometimes I regret breaking up. but then I remembered how I feel happier how I don't cry every night thinkin about how he's going to hurt himself bc it's not my problem anymore (he has self h@rming tendencies) I feel awful for feeling better that I'm not with him but at the same time I regret hurting him with the break up
Last updated on:2025-09-11T22:54:02+05:30
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you already noticed both sides. you miss what you had but you also see you cry less now. both things can be true at once.
i felt lighter after leaving mine too but then hated myself for it. it doesn’t mean you didn’t care, it just means you couldn’t live drowning anymore.
my ex pulled that too. making playlists with songs he knew i loved just to stab at me. it pissed me off but i still checked it like an idiot. it felt gross seeing him twist what was ours into some dig.
Let him blame you about everything but don't take it all to your heart.. It's their style to heal and you can't changes it.. You already do best job from cut off the toxic relationship..
However becareful and stay safe ❣️
The way you’re describing it, you’re putting his feelings ahead of yours. You feel happier and more at peace without him. He is responsible for his own happiness, not you. You expressed feeling guilty for hurting him with the breakup, but being with him was hurting you, and you need to put yourself first. The Spotify playlist title is brutal! I’m sorry you had to see that, but take it as proof that you deserve better. I’m wishing you lots of strength!