A few months ago I ended a five-year relationship because he wasn’t ready for marriage. I felt like I was putting my life on hold waiting for something that might never happen.
But the pain since then has been unbearable. I was already hurting while we were together wanting more than he could give. Ending it felt like the right choice but now I cry myself to sleep every night missing him.
What hurts most is knowing that if I went back he’d welcome me he always has. I try to remind myself how distant he became how the pressure of commitment pushed us apart. How painful it was to love someone who didn’t want the same future.
Still I find myself hoping he’ll come back and change his mind. But deep down I know he probably won’t and I don’t know how to stop hurting.
Last updated on:2025-09-12T15:57:02+05:30
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i missing the version of him that laughed with me in the kitchen even though the later version barely looked at me when i brought up the future. it’s brutal to hold both at once. missing and knowing.
it gettls better,don't rush your feelings
it feels like you already lived two breakups. first when you stayed and wanted more, second when you walked away. no wonder the nights drag.
take each day as it comes and sit with these emotions/ feelings and go through them. It will get easier I promise you. A win is a win no matter how small. Big hugs 🤗
i used to beg for marriage too. he’d always say someday and then change the subject. i left thinking i’d finally feel free. instead i laid on the floor crying, wishing he’d just wake up and want me the way i wanted him.